Three Important Lessons I’ve Learned in Quarantine

Hello, lovely souls.

Where I’m from, the COVID-19 quarantine/lockdown is almost about to be lifted. That’s why I decided to look back and see what I’ve learned in these (almost) 3 months.

The truth is, I’ve never felt better as much as I did in these 3 months. I know it sucks that people are getting sick, but I’ve been at home for all this time, and I’ve been so… calm.

I’ve never known peace like this. It’s the first time since I can remember that I haven’t had to deal with drama from either school or work. I had the time and patience to sit with myself and learn who I am more.

A big part of why I’ve been fine this lockdown is because I have major social anxiety and the absence of people has had a soothing effect. It’s been so calm and peaceful in my life. I’ve never known such peace. This has helped me to figure out so many things. I’m so glad that I got to learn these 3 lessons because these are things people grow up knowing, but I’m this old and I never learned them.

Well, here goes: Three Important Lessons I’ve Learned in Quarantine:

1 | I AM GOOD ENOUGH FOR THIS WORLD

I always feel so unworthy. I feel like I’m doing something wrong every time I’m around people. I always feel like I’m not good enough. I get so much anxiety and I can never be myself, even with my friends.

However, this quarantine season, I’ve been with myself enough to see myself for who I truly am – and it’s good enough. I’m really awesome, if I do say so myself.

I’ve mentioned this before in this post: Three Truths about Seeking Validation from Others. I figured that if I can’t imagine myself as cool, then how can I expect others to think that of me? I have to be willing to believe that I can be that good.

Today, I was doing some yoga and had my legs propped up against the wall, which is a really good move for calming you down, I realized, “Oh my God, I am good enough for this world.”

I am worthy. I am worth all the good things. I am good enough. I’m not wrong. I’m not disgusting. I can be good. I can be soft and lovely.

2 | BELIEVING IN MYSELF

At the start of this whole quarantine situation, I just knew that I had to come up with some structure in my life, or else I’d go crazy with cabin fever. The good thing is that I had already spent around 5 months lounging around after graduating, and I knew what it was like to be exhausted of being unproductive all the time. In fact, I was beginning to regret turning down the job I got to work IT in my uni.

The truth is that I made a pretty calculated decision, one of the few decisions I’ve made without listening to someone else. I suppose this was the beginning of me believing in myself.

With all this free time, I just knew I needed good habits to keep me sane. That’s why I started working out every day including yoga. I started meditating every day, too. (How I Meditate 8 Best Guided Meditation Videos)

I also started reading more self-help books. I rediscovered how much I love audiobooks, and the books that really helped me were:

• The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by Joseph Murphy
• You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay
• The Magic of Believing by Claudie Bristol
• Your Invisible Power by Genevieve Behrend

I first fell in love with believing in myself and thinking thoughts through Louise Hay. In fact I wrote a whole post on how much Louise Hay and her affirmations means to me: How Affirmations Saved My Life

I’ve listened to these books more than twice, and I listened to You Can Heal Your Life almost every day for 2 weeks! I love it that much. When I let it play while I sleep, I wake up feeling SO HAPPY. This is such a new occurrence for me.

These books have inspired me to set affirmations every single day. They all talk about how your thoughts MATTER SO MUCH!!!

They also focus on how you should BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!! Before this, I didn’t know there was such a thing. It’s so much fun to have this BELIEF. You’re allowed to believe that the things you desire will come to you in their own perfect way. You have to be willing to believe for as long as it takes.

3 | I AM WORTHY AS I AM AND AS I DO

I don’t have to prove myself. Isn’t it such a crazy concept? I am loving and loveable as I am and as I do. I don’t have to be a certain way or do something for someone to be deemed worthy of love. Can you believe it? I had no idea. I actually learned this from Lisa A Romano. I literally used to binge-watch all her YouTube videos. She just speaks to me.

She taught me that healthy love with boundaries means that someone loves you as you are, you don’t have to do things to prove yourself as worthy of love.

What’s messed up because I don’t need any motivation to give someone love but I believe that I must prove myself worthy in order to receive love.

If I had to base my worth on something, it would be totally unfair. Everyone would have to have something that made them worthy. But that’s not how the world works. Everyone is worthy of love, joy, happiness and prosperity AS THEY ARE.  

Learning this lesson has really helped to boost my self-esteem. I can now be at the same level as everyone else. I am as worthy as everyone else.

My feelings of being worthy enough and not having to prove myself has also taught me that I am not really responsible for someone else’s feelings and emotions. I can only have control and power over my own self. I can’t do anything to affect someone else, unless they really choose it. I release and let go of the mentality that I can control others.

In that same breath, I’ve realized that I am not not allowed to be bad. I’m allowed to do whatever I want. I don’t lose my worth just because someone says I’m bad, or I do the wrong thing. I can do what I want over and over again. I’m old enough to not be parented for something that is simply what someone hates. I’m allowed to get mad at someone not treating me right.

It’s okay to be bad! It’s okay to disappoint others, and I’ll do it now, tomorrow, and over and over again. All that matters is I am okay with myself. I don’t care if anyone else thinks I’m a piece of crap because I didn’t treat them like royalty. I act like I am worthy of the freedom to do whatever I want. Because now I truly believe I am good enough.

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These are the lessons I’ve learned in lockdown. What have you realized this quarantine? Share with me in the comments below 😊